It's been 6 years. Honestly, I can't believe it. Sometimes it feels like just yesterday and other times it feels like a lifetime ago. But it's been 6 years since I last held my baby. 6 years since I felt her soft skin against mine. 6 years since I felt her move inside of me. 6 years since I said hello and goodbye.

Today marks the beginning of Pregnancy and Infant Loss month. And this is now my 5th October of carrying the weight of the pain of loss.

On June 24th we got to celebrate our Josie's 1st Birthday! Our Sweet Rainbow baby! Where did the year go??

Last week my mom called me while I was at home with Josie and said "The desert house is open this weekend! You guys should go"! I called JD

It’s taken me some time to come to terms with this. And honestly, some days I still struggle. Why me? Why did my child have to die?